so i’ve been away from tumblr for a while and i was going through all of the pages of things i’ve missed while i’ve been absent and i can’t help but feel sad when reading your posts, nikki. not just sad. but a little bit upset. especially after i read the one named “eventually; a tribute to the past.” that one really got me. why do you constantly write and think about what it’s going to be like when i’m gone? when we aren’t friends anymore. when i decide that you’re not good enough and i pack up my things and leave. why do you always try and plan your life for when i’m not going to be by your side? why don’t you try planning what we’re going to do for the rest of our lives with me at your side and you at mine? please stop thinking that i haven’t changed. that i’m still not capable of forever.
why do you want so much for me to leave?
why do you want so much for me to prove you right?
