please don’t make it seem like i haven’t done anything at all in this relationship. don’t act like i haven’t chased you to the edge of the earth and back. don’t pretend that i haven’t changed. don’t assume that my words mean nothing. don’t let yourself believe that i won’t love you forever. don’t get too ahead of yourself, nikki. i am impressed with myself for lasting this long in a relationship, so why would i want to end it now when this is the only thing i have left to live for? can you tell me? i can’t believe, after all this, you still can’t accept that i’m forever. i can’t grasp the fact that you think i’m so much like everyone else. i honestly think that you like to make yourself believe that everyone will leave you. well bad news for you then: i’m not going anywhere. not even if you wanted me to. i’ll be attached to you like a parasite. and maybe that’s just what i am in this relationship: a parasite. i feed on everything you give me and give nothing in return. at least that’s what you think. but i’ll have you know that i have done more in this relationship than any relationship in the past. i’m sorry that i’m not everything you ever dreamed of, that i’m not perfect. i can’t be. i can just be me. and i’ve already changed so much to keep you, i can only do so much, love.
